sylvia-
Travis told me wat happened. shelle told him wat we are and he was disgusted, he left her. he ruined her. he was the only one she ever loved. Travis and i are trying to tell him how much he means to her. i have read his mind and i know that he still loves her, but he is scared. if only he knew she would never hurt him...
Travis is the only one of us that care that can convince him. i can't, he is afraid of me. the rest of our family can't either. he is somewhat afraid of Travis cause he knows we are engaged, he knows what Travis is gonna become. if only he would listen, if only he would watch, if only he would realize...
he is killing someone who is not easily killed, he is killing an immortal...

siarah-
shelle is really messed up.
she wont talk. she wont hunt.
she wont play on the piano.
she wont get on the computer.
what did he do to her??

siarah-
shelle. listen. to. me. there might be someone who can help you. ninette seems to have the smae problems as you. go to the followers, and Ninette's pic is there. click on it, and comment.

siarah-
shelle, come on!!!! wake up. please???

sylvia-
ya, shelle won't do anything. i asked her to help me with the piano and she just stared out the window. her eyes have been black for a couple days now and she still won't hunt. i'm really worried. Travis is trying to talk to her human and see what he did to her. i'm really worried bout shelle and so is everyone else. her eyes are glazed over and she looks like she could drop down dead, but she can't because she's immortal. i'm soooo worried. she could crack and kill millions of people. i'm so worried bout her that i told her i went vegetarian for her. (which i did) she has always tried to get me to be like her and i thought if i did it would help. all i got was a small sigh. this is horrible. i wonder what he did to her...

P.S.- the wedding will be on January 16 if shelle is better, if she's not then it will be post-phoned until she is better. i don't want shelle to be sad at my wedding.

siarah-

what to do. shelle has been like one of the undead (pardon the pun). she wont go hunting, she wont do anything but stare out the window. what has that human done to her????

the pain

Shelle

He doesn't love me. I am virtually unbreakable, i cannot be killed, i live to the ends of enternity. I am immortal- i cannot bruise, cannot bleed with no blood iflowing in my veins. I do not need to breathe and blink, or speak slowly, and can move just as fast as edward. But a mere, little delicate human has managed to break me. Somehow he was able, beyond natural and humane forces, to stop the breath in my lungs, to tear my frozen heart in two and i feel the unfamilar sensation of tears. He has hurt me, like no hurt i ever remember. He doesn't love me...

siarah-
wow. yeah, so, ummmm.....
dang.

my story

sylvia-

what u've all been waiting for....
MY STORY: HOW I BECAME A VAMPIRE
ya i know that u love me *bows* well let's get this party started...

every story has to start somewhere and mine starts when i was 5 years old. it was 1772 and my mother and father got small pox, they barely had a chance. so i was 5 and an orphan. after my parents' funeral my Aunt Savannah and Uncle John decided to take me in a raise me. i packed my things and traveled with my Aunt from Charleston, South Carolina to Boston, Massachusetts. that's were i grew up. my Aunt became like a mother to me and i loved her very much. she and i were very close and on my 16th birthday she organized a dance to celebrate. everyone was there and i fell in love. we saw each other across the room and he asked me to dance. it was normal relationship, we courted and he asked my Uncle if he could marry me. my Uncle said no. i was devastated, but my Uncle told me that he wouldn't have made a good husband for me. i spent 3 days crying in my room and then my Aunt decided to take me to Philadelphia. i forgot my sadness and was filled with excitement. so we went there and there i met Matthew Kilborne. we fell deeeply in love and my Uncle said yes this time when Matthew asked if he could marry me. i was so very happy and we started making our wedding plans. a day before the wedding Matthew and my Uncle were riding their horses and someone startled them and the horses reared up and they fell off and were trampled to death. my Aunt and i spent many days crying by the fire together and i had a feeling that God didn't want me to ever get married. by this time it was 1790 and i was 18. so i vowed never to fall in love again. my 19th birthday was days away and i was on an errand for my Aunt when i saw a strange man. my instinct told me to run, so i did. i was running when the wind blew towards the man and he took a long sniff. i ran faster than i had ever done before, but before i knew it he was in front of me. he reached out and grabbed me, pulling me towards him. he leaned forward and his lips met my throaght. i calmly said, "sir i'm very sorry, but my husband is at home waiting for me and if i'm not home soon he will come looking." the man looked at me and said "you don't have a husband. liar." i was stunned. his lips continued down my throaght and at the base of my neck his teeth bit my skin. i screamed in agony and then i heard a sound and a man said "stop. now." the man slide away from me and i looked up into jasper's face, except i didn't know it was him and that he was the leader until later. he picked me up and carried me away. the pain was mounting in my body and i fainted. i can't really recall everything from that moment on. my memory just stops and then picks up when i woke up. jasper and gisele were standing over me and they told me everything. the man that bit me was Thomas Jackson and jasper had sent him off. so ever since i have been a vampire. i did track down and kill Thomas and i went to my Aunt and told her everything. she died of old age a few months later. when i look back i realize that i was only a week from being 19, but now i am stuck at 18 forever...

well hope you liked it. it is 100% true and i added as much as i can remember...

siarah-
ummmm, no, i was 17. idk what to do about him. he is confusing me!!!! and he smells REALLY good now, when he didnt before. and i cant hear.... nevermind. it is impossible. he cant be ..

ergh!

sylvia-

i couldn't do it!!! i was about to bite him when he yelled stop! and asked me what i was doing. so i told him everything. he looked at me, got down on one knee, and said "sylvia, i want to be with you for forever. will you marry me??" i looked at him and said "of course i will. i love you." and now we are engaged. we agreed that i will make him one of us after our wedding. we are both 18 and fresh out of high school (almost) one more semester. in our school when you are a senior you are done school on January 5 - i am the "oldest" in our family (actually i'm the youngest but i was the oldest when i was transformed - well out of my siblings) siarah, shelle, ciara, ash, edward, and philip were all 16. so i will be graduating soon and Travis and i will have our wedding at (hopefully) the end of January. i am uber excited!!!! well gotta go, lots of wedding plans to be done!!!!

siarah-
okay.....
just fucked that up.
yeah, so my last post was a little depressing.
i was messed up for a few days.
i need to get a grip on myself. badly.
i just dont feel right. i wish that i would have died when humans r supposed to. or have been able to find someone who loved me, and to raise a family, and die happy and old with my husband.
that is something i never will have.
no one can ever love a vampire.
humans would not survive.
and i will not make him have this life, just for my selfishness.
he will remain human.
forever.

siarah-
shelle is right. humans are so breakable. it is funny, though they are some of the weakest creatures on earth, they can be so cruel and greedy. it is unnessassary. like today.
we are cold. but i, of all of us, am not hard. i can be hurt, though it does not show. i cannot bleed, because i have no blood. i cannot bruise, and my bones cannot be broken. but my flesh may be torn, ripped, slashed, mangeled. and it has been. by human hands.
i heal quickly. more quickly than werewolves. but i have a long memory. and they will pay.

sylvia-

shelle, ash is our brother. oh ya u haven't officially met our brothers yet. they are Ash, Edward, and Philip....

as u can see i couldn't fake my death. i disappeared for today and when i got home Siarah told me how Travis had been a wreak without me. ugh i love him too much. so much for keeping him human. i have to tell him eventually what i am anyway. the best way to do that would probably to make him one of us too. well gotta go. it's time for me to make my extremally breakable human a vampire, without it hurting him (or killing him)...

Ewwww... blood

Shelle
Though i am a vampire the thought of hunting for blood makes me squirm. I didn't have to try hard to become a vegetarian. She brought me hunting and i couldn't stand it. Ash likes me? Who is he?
My human is very, ever so delicate. I wish he wasn't so, that way i didn't have to worry about hating myself if i ever hurt him........ My life is hell.

ohno ohno ohno ohno!!!!!!

sylvia-

ok we never talk about our brothers so i will update you.



Ash: is currently single, but really likes Shelle (i can read minds thats how i know this)



Edward: is up to his usually seeing the future tricks and he is dating Ashley (a girl in our school) she isn't a vamp

Philip: he is as quiet as usual and he isn't dating anyone, but he has a major crush on a werewolf and that isn't a good combo



well that's pretty much our brothers' lives so far...

OMG!!!!! i almost bit Travis today (he's the human i'm in love with)!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i was kissing him and then his blood smelt soooooo good and next thing i know he's screaming at me to stop and i look up from his neck and i realize that my teeth had just grazed his skin. i told Edward about it and he said that i'm gonna bite Travis in a week and he will become a vamp. i can't let that happen!!!! so i solved my problem, it was simple actually. i'm gonna fake my death then go live in Canada. so i might not post for awhile as i am getting ready to fake my death...

Demons of the Dark

Shelle

Hi. I have alot of schoolwork today. I don't see the point when i have studied these topics for so many hundred years (i am 300 years old). I now knowledge that even Einstein (the mathmatiction humans praise) could not understand. I study in topics of the unknown to the human race. I speak many languages (fluent french, chinese, spanish, japanese and many others.) Sometimes i even have to tame my learning to seem at human level with my photographic memory. Oh, the humane race is so young compared to ours, so much to learn..... I feel more unnatural then ever.

okay....

siarah-
ummmmmm. idk waht to think after that. YOU WENT HUNTING IN CANADA????????????? with shelle????? what, are you trying to get us found????? wtf. honestly.
so yeah. i really donna know what to do. he was kissing me, and i REALLY wanted to just bite his tongue, and let the venom spread. bthat way he would be so much more durable..... but no. i wont force this way of life upon anyone who hasnt chosen it first. it is sooooo hard though. i could go to hug him, and crush his ribs and lungs!!! humans are so breakable..

grrrrrrrr

ok this is getting out of hand!!!

Travis smells soooooo good!!!

he is the love of my life, i can't kill him, but i want to drink his blood soooo much!!!!!

this is so hard for me cause i'm not a "vegetarian" like everyone else in this family...


and ya, shelle has just joined our litle, biggish family. giselle found her about 3 weeks ago (she was already a vamp). it's so funny watching her learn to not drink human blood and drink animal blood but she went hunting with me a week ago when everyone else was hunting their animals. we went somewhere in canada and i just loved the blood of the little humans that we drank their blood (it wasn't kids) but it really disgusted shelle so she went "vegetarian". why do i have to be the only non-"vegetarian"???????

argh!!!!!