siarah-

yeah. shelle is new. giselle found her, somewhere. she wont tell us where though. giselle says that that is for shelle to tell us, if she ever wants to. i know my story was difficult to tell, though i have been living with it for over two centeries. this boy, the one i have been speaking of; edward told me that he has seen him: as one of us. this is not something that i want; he is too beautiful as it is, and he smells too good. he lives such a normal life, and i do not want this kind of life for him. i doubt that we vampires can ever reach heaven; for i have been told that we were banished from the Holy Heights with Lucifer. this gives me reason to think that when we were bitten, when we were transformed, we were given one of the banished souls. which i why i believe that we will never reach heaven. we can never die, or be reborn. i do not want this for this boy; this wonderful, innocent, child of ages. he will never be immortal, and i want to keep it that way.